Brown Eyed Miracle

    
P!nk - Please Don't Leave Me (Official Video) HQ.

 

I'm currently hooked on this song. It seems to be in a sarcastic tone with her talking about the things that guys usually say to their significant other. The guy would be someone who's pretty mean and emotionally (at least) abusive but when she wants to leave him he begs her not to, says things like "I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me" while what he does is treat her like a "punching bag". He wonders how he became so obnoxious and blames her for making him behave that way, but when she wants to walk out says that he didn't mean it ("But, baby, I don't mean it.")...The video appears to be payback, the tables turned. I love the song. The humming is so addictive. I find myself humming it all the time and I can't stop!

I was thinking about how a lot of us are obssessed with love and finding it when I remembered an episode of 'Sex and the City' where Carrie Bradshaw wonders why it seems like one plus one equals everything and two minus one equals nothing. Why do we focus on finding someone who will complete us? Isn't something wrong if we're incomplete by ourselves? Sure, we want someone we can share our life with, someone who will celebrate our successes and understand our failures, someone who recognises the emotion in your eyes and not just your face. But does it mean that we should feel unfulfilled without the presence of such a person in our lives?

 

Sometimes I think what we're searching for depends on what we have already experienced. We have memories of what made us feel good, special, loved and we want to experience that again. That is what we end up hunting for and, at the same time, close ourselves off to something that may be even better. I think that is why it is so important to move on from one relationship before getting into another. Maybe otherwise we set unrealistic expectations by wanting what we used to have and fail to notice the great qualities of the person in front of us and what they may be offering us. Gosh, what do we let ourselves miss out on? We don't even know it.

 

A lady once told me (if you've read older posts on this blog, you know whom I'm talking about) that she believed that there was someone out there for everyone. I cannot disagree with her theory completely. She said that you just have to be very lucky. Lucky enough to live at the same time, in the same place and meet. "If you have to cross seas to meet him," she said, "do it. Your life will be worth it." I believe her, but should I be on the lookout for him constantly? Or should I just live my life and let our paths cross? I think maybe once we stop looking for it, that is when it will come to us. When we least expect it. That's how it always is. When you're out and about, living your life, enjoying it, that's when it will blindside you.

Ok, so I just got home from work and omgomgomg, it's all bright and all outside. AND it's past 5:00 pm!!! Ok, if you don't understand why I'm so excited about this then it just shows what you know about me. I HATE the winter because of a) how cold it is, and b) how goddamn short the days are! BUT THE DAYS ARE GETTING LONGER BEFORE MY VERY EYES!!!! :D :D :D I'm so freakin thrilled! I stepped out of the bank today and my entire face just broke into one HUGE grin! It was bright outside!!! :D It has been so long since I've seen the sky so bright at this hour. It was cold but I could not even think about that, I was just so distracted by the beautiful lack of darkness. And, no, it wasn't too sunny either, so it's not just that. I am filled with hope for better days and warmer weather. hopehopehopewhoopee!

Well, thankfully we're not color blind so we can appreciate the true beauty of these Christian Louboutin 'Yopi' peep-toes:

I don't know. Let me see...what is addiction defined as? One website tells me that 'addiction is a dependence on a behavior or substance that a person is powerless to stop.' I use M.A.C's Lip Conditioner and I do sometimes feel like I'm hooked. For instance, I simply MUST have a tube of it on my person at all times. If I don't use it my lips feel dry and in sore need of some conditioning, the likes of which only THAT lip conditioner can provide. If I misplace it or can't find it, I find myself hunting for it frantically. I desperately try to remember the last time I saw it. If I still can't find it, I panic. I go into a mad frenzy wondering how I'm going to manage without it. I obsess about getting to the closest M.A.C store as soon as possible so I can pick up another tube. I've decided to keep a couple of them on hand, in case I ever run out or lose one and need my fix. Would I call this an addiction? I sure would like not to.